stress

I know there’s lots of disagreement on the ability to multitask or not – and I’m not getting scientific.  Just roll with it for a bit.

I seem to have a problem focusing on things.  It’s not just motivating myself to work out, which I’m struggling with lately, planning our weekly menus, it’s everything.

Let’s start with the biggest: Work.  I can’t focus on work to get ahead or get things done. I’m constantly struggling to just keep up. I have a huge project in April, what have I done? Nothing. I have a partner who works with me, but without me giving specific tasks, she doesn’t do anything.

Next: Adoption.  No, we haven’t stopped our process, but in order to move on, I need to pay taxes so that I can balance the budget to pay the next fee to make a profile. And once we do that, it’s lots of narratives and essays and pictures, and flyers. That’s all time consuming.

Our house.  We finally got one room painted, but that’s about it.  I haven’t stepped foot back in there to finish up anything else, to sit down with B and decide where to hang pictures, etc.

It seems like at most, I can focus on one thing at a time.  If I’m focusing on the house, everything else fades away. If I dive into work, that’s all I can see.

I can’t sleep through the night, my mind is racing.  I can’t make time for things that I want and need in my life.  Hours just go past, and I have no idea what happened to them.

Why can’t I balance these things? They’re everyday, little things, that shouldn’t be this hard.  I feel like there’s something I am missing. Some secret switch I can’t seem to find right now.

Ever feeling you’re just floating along? 

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