I weigh in on Wednesdays. On Tuesday& Wednesday I tend to have an exact lunch week after week out of consistency. This past Wednesday, it’s merely breakfast and I was STARVING. Like, please someone shovel food into my mouth starving. I had the exact same breakfast I have every day, Monday-Friday. It has plenty of protein, and I’m not this hungry any other day during the week.
I move on, ignore the FEED ME screams in my head, and went about my day. Then it got to lunch. My lunch, which again, I love and rarely ever need to supplement extra food with – wasn’t cutting it. I’m looking at it disgusted and annoyed that I have to eat it.
I joined Weight Watchers because I like that I can make it work with my life. When I start shifting my life, then I feel like I’m on a diet and I become resentful. I didn’t have that until now. I had enjoyed what I was doing but now? I’m angry. I feel like I’m punishing myself. I want to enjoy salads, not hate them. I want to enjoy lean protein filled meals, not be angry that I’m eating it.
Am I really hungry or am I just tricking myself to think that I am because I know my WI is coming up? I’m struggling to find the balance. I walk away, I drink water, I eat some fruit. It’s not that I’m not getting enough – the foods I bring are simply filling foods – intended to fill you up, and I’m getting enough protein those days, just like every other day..
I need to get my head back in this. I need to re-align my priorities and remember why I started this. I started this because what I was doing wasn’t working. I started this so I could learn how to make smarter choices.